“Buhay Lingkod”

“Ronn! Mag krus ka!” Hay nako! Halos linggo linggo kong naririnig ito, at siyempre bilang isang tao halos linggo linggo akong nagkakamali, nadudulas, sumasabalay, sumesemplang at kung anu-ano pang kapalpakan ang aking nagagawa.

            Alam kong bilang isang tao lahat tayo ay kailangang madapa, masaktan, at bumagsak ngunit sa kabila nito ang Diyos Ama ay tumutulong upang ibangon at itaguyod ako tuwing oras na ng kadiliman at bawat pagkakamali na aking nagagawa ay nagiging leksyon na nagpapatibay sa akin.

            Dahil sa mga ginagawa sa akin ng Panginoon ako ay nahabag at naghanap ako ng paraan para mapasalamatan siya. Akala ko ay ayos na ang pagdarasal ngunit aplikasyon pala ang hinihingi niya sa akin. Tinawag niya ako upang pagsilbihan siya at ako naman ay walang dudang tumugon.

            Sa mahigit 1 taon kong paglilingkod iba’t-ibang ugali, itsura, at pananaw sa buhay ang aking nakasalamuha. May mga server sa tawag pero hudyo ang uali. Mayroon din namang kasing taas ng himpapawid ang tingin sa sarili. Mayroon ding mistulang buhawi ang ulo. At siyempre hindi mawawala ang mga katulad kong gwapo, pogi, matalino, mabait, masipag, tahimik, matino, maayos, malinis ang isip, masunurin, at higit sa lahat medyo sinungaling.XD..kung may mga hindi magagandang ugali siyempre may mapagpakumbaba, mabait, mpagbigay, at mayroon ding mukhang hindi mapagkakatiwalaan pero sa panahon ng kagipitaan sila ang tutulong sa iyo.

            Napakalaki ng pasasalamat ko sa panginoon dahil kung hindi niya ako tinawag siguro ay magiging malungkot at walang saysay ang buhay kong ito. Nagpapasalamat din ako sa kanya dahil nagkaroon ako ng pamilya sa loob ng simbahan kung saan ang mga kapatid ko ay ang kapwa ko server at an gaming napakagaling na pinuno ang aming gabay upang mas lalo kaming mapalapit sa panginoon..(sir dapat mataas grade nito..hahaha..XD)

Ako laban sa mundo

Buhay…Ang buhay ay isang napakalaking kalokohan na punong-puno ng walang katapusang paghihirap. Bakit nga ba kailangan pa ng pagdurusa? Bakit pa ba tayo sinusubukan? Bakit nararamdaman ko ang kalungkutan? Npakadami kong katanungang kahit ako ay hindi ko masagot at wala akong magawa dahil magulo ang aking isip, sarado ang aking puso at patay ang aking diwa.

Sa mga oras na ito, malamang ay wala akong kakampi. Lahat sila ay likod ang inihaharap sa akin. Ang mga taong akala kong tutulong sa akin sa pagasenso ay siyang nagpabagsak sa akin. Talaga bang sinadyang punuin ng sakit at dalamhati ang aking buhay? Hirap na hirap na ako at pakiramdam ko ay nasa pinakaibaba na ako. Nais kong bumangon mula sa kasawiang ito subalit sa tuwing magtatangka ako ay bigla akong natutumba dahil wala ni-isa an ang nariyan upang ako ay tulungang tumayo.

Patuloy na tumatakbo ang oras, unti-unting bumabagal ang tibok ng aking puso, meron akong pakiramdam ngunit manhid na ang aking isipan. Ng biglang may tinig na nagmula sa hindi malamang lugar ang tumawag sa pangalan ko. Isang tinig na masarap sa tenga at nakakaakit sa pandinig. Unti-unting lumakas ang pagtawag at bumulong siya sa akin ng “Anak, Lumaban ka”. Ako ay biglang natauhan. Pinilit kong bumangon at sa pagbangon ko ay nakita ko ng malinaw ang mga kasagutan sa aking tanong. Nagnilay-nilay ako at habang ginagawa ko ito..naramdaman ko na may init na bumabalot sa aking katawan, bumibilis ang tibok ng aking puso at nakadama ako ng pagmamahal at nahabag ang aking muntiong damdamin. Doon ko na lamang nalaman na ako pala ay lumalaban sa mundo na ang tanging kakampi ko lang ay ang aking pananampalataya. Kahit nadarama ko ang dalamhati ay kumilos ako hinarap ang malupit na mundo at nakipaglaban ako at sa huli ay naramdaman kong panalo ako dahil nagkaroon na ako ng aking sariling mundo. Mundo na walang lungkot, walang dusa at higit sa lahat ay walang kirot na dumadaloy. Ang mundong tinutukoy ko ay ang mundo kung saan naroon ang aking pamilya, barkada, at higit sa lahat ay ang simbahan na siyang naghubog sa akin. Sa mga oras na ito ay Nilagyan ko na ang wakas ang laban sa isinumpang mundo ng kalungkutan at nagpakasaya sa bago kong mundo, Ang mundo ng Panginoon.

Ayoko pang mamatay dahil may silbi pa ako

 Kamatayan…Isang bagay na napakahirap intindihin at unawain kasi naman, Isang beses lang ito madarama at kapag naranasan mo ito tiyak hinding hindi ka na makakabalik sa buhay at dalawa lamang ang possible mong kalagyan. Impyerno o Langit.

                Sa Impyerno Siguradong magdurusa ka at kapag napunta ako dun siguradong tanggal ang kaputian ko kasama ang balat dahil sa sobrang init kaya wala akong duda kung bakit marami ang natatakot dito. Pero malamang ay maraming negosyante ang gusto dito. Hindi dahil sa marami silang kasalanan kundi dahil kikita sila dun. Kapag nagbenta kasi sila ng Ice cream, Ice water, Ice at kung anu-ano pang malalamig, siguradong araw-araw sold out ang benta nila. Ang problema nga lang ay kung aabot ang paninda nila ng malamig kapag tumapak na sila sa Impyerno.

                Ang langit naman ay parang magnet sa tao. Malakas humatak kasi lahat gusto dito maging ako maging ikaw, maging kami, maging kayo, at lahat tayo. Kasi ayon sa Bibliya, kung binibuklat man ninyo, Ang langit daw ay walang hangganang ligaya.walang pagdurusa, walang sakit, walang hirap at walang lungkot Ngunit napakahirap daw pasukin ito. Mas madali pa raw makapasok ang kamelyo sa butas ng karayom kung ikukumpara sa pagpasok ng tao sa langit…kaya napapaisip tuloy ako kung matino ang nagsabi nun. Kasya ba ang kamelyo sa butas ng karayom? Napakalaki kaya ng kamelyo! Ipis nga hindi kasya dun kamelyo pa kaya.

                Hay nako..Tama na ang kalokohan dumako naman tayo sa seryoso at makabuluhang parte. Marami akong dahilan kung bakit gusto ko pang mabuhay dito sa mundo. Ako, Bilang isang tao ay naniniwala na may silbi ako kaya ako ginawa ng panginoon. Lahat tayo ay may parehas na misyon ngunit iba-iba ang ating paraan ng pagtupad dito. Tayong mga tao ay inilalang ng Diyos upang pangalagaan ang kanyang mga nilikha sa mundong ibabaw at ginagampanan ko ang misyong ito sa abotaking makakaya at para na rin makapunta ako sa langit at makasama ang nagiisang panginoon na lumikha sa akin at sa ating lahat

Sakit ng Dalamhati

“Sakit ng Dalamhati”

            Napakagulo ng isipan ko. Maging ang aking puso’y litung-lito. Ano nga ba itong pakiramdam na ito? Na madalas magdala sa akin ng peligro.

            Maraming beses na akong naghahanap ng solusyon dito sa damdaming ito subalit araw-araw ako ay palging bigo. Siguro nga’y nakakandado ang puso ko sa pakiramdam na ito at wala na akong pag-asa pang lumigaya.Ito ang dahilan kung bakit Palaging nadudurog ang PUSO kong MAGANDA at Sumasakit ang aking MALINIS na KAISIPAN. Ito rin ang pangunahing dahilan kung bakit ako ay palaging bigo. Pero hindi ko naman masisisi ang aking sarili dahil ang tadhana ang may pananagutan dito! Sadyang napakalupit ng tadhana sa akin, lahat ng bagay na ginusto ko ay ipinagkakait niya sa akin, ang bawat pangarap ko ay  unti-unti niyang ginugunaw at lahat ng gusto kong maabot ay sadyang kanyang inilalayo.

Paminsan-minsan ako’y may nararamdamang iggit sa iba sapagkat kumakampi sa kanila ang tadhana ngunit sa mga katulad ko’y parang kontrabida ito sa aming magandang pelikula dahil Lagi na lang kami nitong ibinabagsak, Itinutumba, Dinadapa at kung anu-ano pa. Subalit kahit ilang beses man akong itumba ng tadhana ako ay magpipilit na bumangon at susubukan kong sirain ang rehas ng kalungkutan, wawasakin ko ang kandado ng pagluluksa at dudurugin ko ng pira-piraso ang kulungan ng Dalamhati upang sa gayon ay gumaling ang puso kong nagdusa sa SAKIT NG DALAMHATI.

Sa aking pag-iisa..

“Sa aking pag-iisa”

Naranasan mo na bang mawalan ng pag-asa?  Nakadama ka na ba ng matinding kalungkutan? Napakasakit maranasan at madama ang mga pakiramdam na ito subalit madalas itong bumabagabag sa aking isipan tuwing ako ay walang kasama.

Madalas akong nag-iisa at habang ako ay balisa, ako ay nagninilay-nilay sa mga mali kong nagawa. Madalas akong nagsisisi at kadalasan nasasabi ko sa sarili ko na nasa huli talaga ang pagsisisi pero ano pa bang magagawa ko? Naganap na ang dapat maganap at wala na akong magagawa. Gumagana din ang aking imahinasyon kapag ako ay nag-iisa. Minsan ay nag-iisip ako ng mga nakakakilig na love scenes at tinatawanan ko na lang ang sarili ko. Pero kadalasan, dumadapo sa akin ang isang pakiramdam na mahirap mapigilan. Pakiramdam na nakakaaliw sa una ngunit nakakabaliw kapag tumatagal na. ito ang pakiramdam na kadalasa’y nararamdaman ng mga katulad kong lalaki. Tuwing nararamdaman ko ito, madalas tumindig ang aking balahibo at tumitigas ang aking KATAWAN sa lamig at ako ay gumagawa ng hindi kanais-nais na bagay. Subalit, pagkatapos nito, ako ay bumabalik sa katinuan at ako ay mas nagiging maamo kaysa sa isang tupa. At muling babalik ang aking malungkot na buhay. Nagpapatunay lamang na panandalian lamang ang aliw samantalang humahagupit ang kalungkutan.

Tuwing ako ay nalulumbay, dalawang bagay lamang ang nakakatulon sa akin. Ito ay ang pagmamahal at pagdarasal. Ang mga ito lamang ang nakakagaan ng aking pakiramdam at ito lamang ang tanging nagpapadama sa akin na ako ay nabubuhay pa dito sa mundong ibababaw. Tanging ang mga ito lamang ang aking panglaban sa sarili kong kalungkutan na palagi kong nakakaharap SA AKING PAG-IISA.

Emo Qoutes

These quotes are derived from emotional persons..It is a compilation of  Emotional qoutes..

Emo Quotes

• The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone.
• I cry for the time that you were almost mine,  I cry for the memories I’ve left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new, I cry for the times I thought I had you
• Not all scars show, not all wounds heal Sometimes you can’t always see The pain someone feels
• Whats the sense of wishing for something when I always just wish it away?
• Every night i talk to the stars pretending its you.. it acts just like you tho.. far away and never replies to my questions
• Why do people tell you to believe in what you want to but then tell you not to believe in the one true thing you do believe in?
• Times a precious thing to waste, but friends are more precious
• Kiss me im emo!
• The sad truth is that most evil is done by people who never make up their minds to be good or evil.
• The saddest aspect of life right now is that science gathers knowledge faster than society gathers wisdom.

Emo poetry

Emo poetry is something that can be defined as emotionally provocative poetry. Emo poetry often talks about something that is difficult to discuss with most people. Some of these themes include suicidal thoughts, painful experiences, anger inspiring events, or any other kind of emotion. This doesn’t mean that all Emo poetry is suicidal, and it doesn’t mean that all Emo kids are suicidal. It is just another emotion that can be expressed through poetry.

The important thing about Emo poetry is that is serving a purpose for the writer. The art that is produced from Emo poetry is only a byproduct of the process of creating it: through this process, the writer is able to exorcise the feelings that torment him or her and produce the poem. The purpose is only to provide the writer with catharsis and relief. If the poem is good, then that is just an added benefit for readers, but the purpose of the poem is served in the process of creating it. Some quotes from Emo poetry are listed below.

Dad was a carpenter

Dad was a Carpenter by Kenny Kemp

I. Title of the book and Author

Dad was a Carpenter by Kenny Kemp

II. Summary

In the cold month of December, Kenny Kemp celebrated winter alongside with the winter he is feeling inside his heart because of the tragic loss of his father. This Christmas Season, he drove off to his hometown where he helped her mother clean the remaining things and possessions of his dead father. While doing these things, he commemorated some of the special moments he shared with his father. He remembered the time when his sister, Bonnie, painted father’s garage which made a negative impact with their neighbors. When he was eight, his father made him an improvised go-cart which he shared with his playmates. He also reminisced the time he became a boy scout in which he, together with his father, climbed a mountain. Some time, their house also burnt down. He also commemorated the event when he fixed his automobile because of his own mistake. Things started to change when his father was forced to retire in his work as a pharmacist. Alongside with this burden was the doctor’s diagnosis of Lou Gehrig’s disease or amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (ALS) on his father. Although he had that bleak fortune, he still didn’t lose faith and instead able himself to find something good in his surroundings. After four months of his death, Kenny Kemp cleaned the house and found the things associated with his father.

III. Character Sketch

The character in the story, O.C. Kemp (Kenny Kemp’s father), was very impressive because of his faith and bravery during the time when he faced those trials that entered his life. He became braver when that trial was given by him. He smiled instead of crying; he kept quiet instead of complaining.

IV. Conflict

O.C. Kemp was diagnosed with ALS just after his retirement as a pharmacist. During his check-up, his doctor admitted that he has only 18 short months to live. In those days, he ignored his illness and still lived a normal life despite the cries and tears of his loved ones.

V. Special Feature of the setting

When he got ALS, he got stronger than before. He got more faith in God.

VI. Reason of Recommendation

I recommend that you read this book because of the moral lessons and virtues in stored inside it. I find it with interest Chapters 10 – 18 where the conflict was revealed.

Tuesdays with Morrie

Tuesdays with Morrie

By: Mitch Albom

Summary:

            The novel Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom is about a young man named Mitch who travels hundreds of miles one a week, every Tuesday, ust to see his old professor whom everyone calls Morrie who is with a rare disease known as amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (ALS).

            Since Morrie appeared in a T.V. Show entitled “Nightline” , he became popular around the world. He started to receive letters, phone calls, and personal visits. In fact, one of his visitors is Mitch Albom, his old student who promised to keep in touch but never did.

            Never did they know that their reunion every Tuesday will turn out to be a new class with Morrie as a teacher and Mitch as the student. Their weekly discussion is about “The Meaning of Life”. As the days pass by, Mitch learned many things while Morrie became weaker and weaker. He also began to talk about his tombstone and the idea of his cremation. Then one Saturday morning…he died. All of his close relatives came home from distant places including his sons, Rob and Jon. Although hundreds of people wanted to attend, Morrie’s wife decided to keep it privately.

            The story ended with Mitch reading his brother’s letters that gave him tons of laughter. Morrie made a big change in Mitch’s life.

Character Sketch:

            The character in the novel named Morrie Schwartz is an old man with sparkling blue – green eyes. Like other old people, he has a thinning white hair. He also has a gaunt face.

            Morrie is an old and retired professor of Brandeis University located in the city of Waltham, Massachusetts where he used to teach sociology.

            He is weak and he has ALS. But despite of the sufferings he faces, he still tries to be optimistic and see good things in all the bad things happening in his surroundings.

            He is a good man with a strong faith in God. He is an intelligent person with a sound mind. He is also a loving husband, a caring friend, a considerate professor, a good counselor, a strong believer, and a man of wisdom. With the exception of his illness, I can say that Morrie Schwartz is indeed a perfect person.

Moral Lesson:

            This novel teaches us to think positively and to disregard the bad ones when insurmountable trials enter our lives. We must try to find something good in our surroundings and learn to appreciate them even though they are simple. You will realize the importance of something when it is already gone, when you can do nothing to take it back. We must be strong when facing problems must like what Morrie did so that we can win against our problems and prove God that we have a strong faith in Him. We must also thank Him for guiding us especially when our hope is low. I also realized the importance of family in one’s life because they are there to give you moral support. Thanks to this book, I become a better person. #

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